I've never been on a roller-coaster. Never been a fan, never been curious, never will be. Actually every time someone approached me regarding the subject I would always had one answer,  unless our sweet Savior is gonna ask me to go for it...won't happen ! And then we all laughed, because in life it's easier to laugh and be a little ironic, especially when you know that situation won't touch you.
I kind of smile now but not really...who taught that earlier this year not just me or so and so but globally we will literally find ourselves in the most intense roller-coaster ride...to put it in words is hard. WHO knew that in 2020 we will face such a tragic situation, yet not new - caught us off guard ?
So it wasn't enough that nobody approved the ride but some of us also had no seat belt on.
It was and still is tragic to see the numbers, to see the lonely funerals...it's absolutely heartbreaking and like I've said hard for me to put it in words.
Some  lost people they loved, cherish and were not ready to let go...Many lost themselves in the ocean of fear, anxiety, depression and despair.
We often hear ,,this are uncertain times,, or
 ,,nobody really knows,,.
We lost ourselves and fear for many become a daily companion. In one season we forgot we are human and that as long our hearts make music...there is HOPE. We forgot to look up !
They are uncertain times...they say...
I remember one morning when I literally broke in tears while attempting to prepare the breakfast. There it was my kids school program ! In my face telling me how life used to be smooth even in those early mornings when my spirit was not so keen...I had to take it down.
Next moment happened  in the same spot this time  in my attempt to have a cup of coffee I grabbed one of the mugs. It was my Monday mug and with nice chic letters the message was clear and golden ,, Coffee makes Monday mornings go away''.
Right  then the Holy Spirit started revealing inside of my heart many past situation that had me complain or made me nag about...Many moments where instead of being grateful I wasn't.
And right then and there decided that the mug has to go and I have to listen what the Holy Spirit wants to unveil.
I've been thinking about many aspects of life, especially this past months.
In the beginning I've experienced something new. All though the pandemic situation installed quite quickly and dramatic, like always, I knew my life is still in Gods hand's.  That Jesus is still the King of the world and if He means something to be in my life, it will be!
I found myself praying and declaring His truth over my life and my family...yet my physical body was literally shaking. I remember clearly how one sunday night after everyone was tucked in I didn't rush and took time to stay in the presence of the Lord. There were few critical moments like this in my life when my prayers were more intense I would say. When someone's heart is like an open book where a scanner is going on and on. I asked the Lord to take that fear away and fill my heart with His precious peace. There were tears and many confessions. The Lord in His mercy touched my heart. He was ready to reveal and I was eagerly to listen !
Next day I woke up and it was like this invisible shield over my mind/heart.  It was such a peace inside and around me that I missed so much !
Since that day the title above came alive in my mind.
Its almost like a theme was set, and a scenario was about to take place.
In my personal experience and relationship with the Lord, among the years I've learned few things yet most of the time I feel like I know nothing and that is also nothing that haven't been said or I could say it better. It takes a lot to come here and put my heart on ,,paper'' .
I believe the most accurate validation of our being is where is the Lord in all.
This indeed for all the world are uncertain times at a level or another but for those who call themselves children of God, His presence and authority in our life should be/become the ultimate compass.
If we know who we are in the Lord and who He is or where in our life...we can receive peace in the midst of any storm !
The Lord is the same yesterday, today and tomorrow and yet many could be devastating for the human eye, is nothing there new for His sight !
He already knows how we will come out of any situation before we even enter it ! 

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​He knows our weaknesses he knows where we are thriving, He knows it all. He knows us at all.
I believe that this certain truth is the only one that is going to bring us relief and strength. The certitude that He is God, that he is not unaware of anything,  that we are His children we are  His plan. Not forgotten, but redeemed by our savior Jesus. With our names written in the Book of Life.
This is our certain in uncertain times like this !
And the best way to receive this relief is by allowing the compass, the Holy Spirit and the Word of God to show us the map inside our hearts. If we will seek Him, the Lord will vanish any dusk of confusion.  But we need to allow Him and the only way we can do this is by not rushing our prayers anymore. By living with an open Bible, not out of context, not for women only, not interpreted by many, not skinny translations. A Bible that will have our eyes and hearts more than any phones or gadgets. Eyes that will push aside ungodly accounts...ears that will be eager to listen even when the truth will hurt. Hands and feet that will be completely rededicated and most of all a heart of repentence... a forgotten way for the modern Christianity...But the only way that makes any walls fall down.
We need to bow our knees like never before and resist the rush...Then the Holy Spirit will unveil many and we will be certain. Is not the popular way but is the only way, at the feet of Jesus.
Will be certain of His presence and we will have peace even in the mist of the storm, after all Jesus is the only one who can tell any storm to BE STILL !

​THIS IS CERTAIN.

I always enjoyed writing. Even now I remember clearly the first composition while in school. I think I read it for a whole week to every member of the family and some neighbors - out loud !
I liberate many feelings, battles or even stories of my heart, this way.
Many years ago I felt the Holy Spirit was prompting my heart to open a blog. Everything came to me like a river, especially while I was praying. The name, the theme, the subjects.
Few years ago ,,While Waiting Blog,, was on.
After a while I put it aside, till will be no more diapers or I'll sleep some more....I decided to wait.
All this time paying for this platform (bless my dear husband). :))
Last weekend I made a call in order to purchase a shampoo and that call ended up being the ,,prompting,, that moved the previous ones and moved my heart as well !
I'm just being sincere. I still don't see much in me but if is something that God could use for His glory...it does not matter how I ,,fear,, anymore. It matters that He will be glorified and I will be faithful.
All this is still new for me and if something will be amazing in any way or shape it will be because of Jesus, my King and my Redeemer !
My name is Lilian, I've been married for a decade now, to an amazing man who fears and loves the Lord more than anything. We have three arrows. And I think motherhood shapes me more that I shape my children.
As  believers , we are waiting for Jesus and His return, this times more than ever.
So while waiting let's make the most of our life for His glory ! Let's make the waiting count.
​And may point to our Savior for His glory alone, redeeming the time !